Seems that once again I have damaged someone I care very much for. Out of the heart the mouth speaks..............
I carried some personal hurt and some hurt felt by others and let it fester until it bacame an ugly, puss-filled boil that burst right onto the heart of a good friend. The sad part is that this friend is very young and has probably not had such an angry dart hurled at them before, thus, making me feel even worse.
We always want to be memorable, make our impression on people. Well, what impression am I making? I certainly hate myself when I see the "old man" rise up and cause such ugly pain. I am pretty good at it, too. Isn't that ironic? You see, I'm not good at many things and this is certainly not something I desire to be gifted in, or be outstanding in.
There is no repair that can be done for this except for the healing powers of Jesus Christ. My prayer is, that as I ask for forgiveness of this young man, that God will heal the hurt and erease the words from his mind. As for restoring our relationship, maybe time will be able to do that, I can only hope and pray.
Sometimes I really HATE interpersonal relationships. There is too much pain involved. Sadly, the hurt I feel related to this situation is minimal compared to the hurts I feel in other relationships but this is the one that got vomited on...................
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